Liar.

Cause there's a start and an end,
But it's not meant for us.

Monday, 11 July 2011
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See that silly boy up there. That's the guy that I've been mentioning about.

I just can't stop crying looking at all of his picture. And especially this particular picture. He's holding on to that bracelet, couple bracelet with my name on it (the one in black)

I don't know, what was I thinking when I said "I'm done" with him. I was just mad and frustrated, that I can't think well when I said that sentence to him. I just regretted everything.

I regretted, I really do. I'm just not worthy for him, I know I'm not.

Crying just can't bring you back. I'm sorry, I do love you </3.

Love.

Remember those times we had? I just can't forget 21st April 2010 & 1st September 2010. I just wish that I could sit in a room, watching a movie of our life and our past. I just don't wanna let go of you when we have already come so far. Yes, we're friends. But I have never took you as only a friend of mine. You're more than just a friend, you're my other half. You've been the only reason why I manage to smile each day without fail whenever I hear your voice. You've been the only reason why I enjoy my day. You've been the only reason why I'm always caught smiling whenever I thought of you. Mohammed Fairus Bin Saludin. I love you more than you ever knew.

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Cause when there's a start, there's an end. I believe, this is not the end yet. :'(
Mohammed Fairus Bin Saludin. I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I can't understand you like how I did when we were in a relationship. I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've done. I'm sorry for all those childish acts. I'm sorry for everything. When I said I'm done with you, no baby, I don't mean it. I'm sorry. Yes, karma has hit you back. That is the reason why I'm still staying here, just hoping for you to come back eventhough I told you I gave up a few hours ago. I love you, and I really do :'/

Saturday, 9 July 2011
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Photo credits: Mr Riduwan Ahmad.
I wanna go to Singapore Sports School again, please? I wanna go to the vending machine and buy that darn cheap drinkssssssss. Haha! Perangai cheapo sia >.<

I have just finish watching KL Gangster and Karak. Wahseh, 10/10 for KL Gangster ah. Karak serious sucker ah. :P Ending question mark.

Okay, let's get serious posting. Actually, I don't really have anything to post about. I just can't find any serious mood to get serious cause I've been loving my life lately. I've been enjoying every single bit of it. In school life, I've been starting to do my Maths work and have been starting to catch up with the lesson. For MT, sucks big time. I hate that temporary teacher who will be taking over Ms Adillah, till next year or by end of this year cause my MT teacher will be leaving soon. What else? Okay, this term I will be taking DnT. Fuck it. I already gave up on the second lesson of DnT. Hm, bla bla bla, others still the same. I just don't see myself slacking that much ever since the starting of the semester. I did my homeworks, I did my schoolworks, I brought all my books, I've been attending CCA, and I hope this attitude of mine shall never stop. Streaming year this year, I just expect the best results on my report slip by end of this year ;D
And oh, not to forget. For this semester too, I'll be taking Geography. Sigh, cannot make it. I've been sleeping in class. Whether am I in the class or not, the teacher will not even notice it. I'm sitting right in front of where the teacher is teaching, yet I could still sleep for the whole 1 hour period. SIGH!

For my own life, outside school life. Hm. I do have problems with it. But yeah, I can't do anything about it, just to do well for my studies. Only he knows what I'm going through right now. I thank him for being there for me whenever I need him. I thank him, for all the advices he gave. I thank him, for all the every 5 minutes calls he gave, just to make sure that I'm alright. I thank him for all his concerns and everything. Terima kasih cinta.

For me and my other part of life, well, been doing great :D
We don't really fight, except for one of those childish fights :P
I'm just grateful, that I still have him by my side though I'm not yet officially his lil girlfriend, yet. I'm just grateful, to have a guy, that takes care of me when I'm sick. The only guy that will know whether am I alright or not by just hearing my voice, not the way I talk. The only guy that will keep asking me why am I behaving weirdly. The only guy that will call me every 5 minutes, just to ensure me that I'm not feeling down. The guy that will call me just to hear me laugh. And the only guy, that will do anything, just to make me smile. I love that guy. That guy who taught me what love is. Insya'Allah, if God willings, if nothing happens, we will be a pair, once again, amin.

And this song. I still remembered this. This song, is the song when we were in a relationship. This song is the song that he sent through Facebook with LONGLONGLONG message. We fought till the extend that I told him, I hate love, I hate him. Nobody can handle his ego. But just for the sake of me, he pushed away his ego, and decided to give me this song along with along message to tell me how much the relationship meant to him. I just hope things will go smoothly between me and him. Hopefully I shall stay strong and overcome all the obstacles. I also hope, he shall stay with me though there will be fights or misunderstandings between us. And I just hope, he knows, how much I love him. :)
And I do hope, that we could be together, like how we were last year.

Assalamualaikum.

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