Wednesday, 10 August 2011
Last blogged @ 16:22

And I just want you to know, how much I miss you.

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Sunday, 7 August 2011
Last blogged @ 15:00

Friday, 5 August 2011
Last blogged @ 22:09

"Look at me, look at my face. Look at my expression, tell me, do I look like I give a damn?"

Quotes comes out of my mind out of sudden. I make quotes whenever I'm not at my mood. Sorry for not updating for like a month? *sneeze* My blog is so dusty. Internet has been laggy and yeah. Life's been shitty lately. Reading at my previous posts about him, yeah, I wonder, is he even serious? Why am I even serious with him, when I don't even know whether he's serious, or not. I'm really just gonna give up. Give everything up and just let it go. Just gonna start a new life, with my family, and my dearest bestfriend by my side. I don't need any relationships. I'm thankful enough to have her right by my side whenever problems pop out. I love her.


Do you know how hard it is to find a TRUE BESTFRIEND? Do you know how long it takes for someone to really trust another person fully? I'm grateful enough to have her in my life. Though I need ex-boyfriend in my life, but I still do need her more actually. She's one strong girl who knows how to smile though she's hurt. She's sensitive, yet she forgives easily when someone hurts her. I don't need others as my bestfriend- Cause I got her<3
Cutegirl, thanks for being there for me, when I need you. Though you're in a relationship, thanks for making time for me, though you're in a relationship. Sorry if I've not been helping you much, I've been busy. I love you, Gundu. Do take care of yourself.


And for him. You know I still love you :/

Monday, 11 July 2011
Last blogged @ 15:28

Crying just can't bring you back. I'm sorry, I do love you </3.

Last blogged @ 14:57

Cause when there's a start, there's an end. I believe, this is not the end yet. :'(
Mohammed Fairus Bin Saludin. I'm sorry. I'm sorry if I can't understand you like how I did when we were in a relationship. I'm sorry for all the mistakes I've done. I'm sorry for all those childish acts. I'm sorry for everything. When I said I'm done with you, no baby, I don't mean it. I'm sorry. Yes, karma has hit you back. That is the reason why I'm still staying here, just hoping for you to come back eventhough I told you I gave up a few hours ago. I love you, and I really do :'/

Saturday, 9 July 2011
Last blogged @ 18:29

Photo credits: Mr Riduwan Ahmad.
I wanna go to Singapore Sports School again, please? I wanna go to the vending machine and buy that darn cheap drinkssssssss. Haha! Perangai cheapo sia >.<

I have just finish watching KL Gangster and Karak. Wahseh, 10/10 for KL Gangster ah. Karak serious sucker ah. :P Ending question mark.

Okay, let's get serious posting. Actually, I don't really have anything to post about. I just can't find any serious mood to get serious cause I've been loving my life lately. I've been enjoying every single bit of it. In school life, I've been starting to do my Maths work and have been starting to catch up with the lesson. For MT, sucks big time. I hate that temporary teacher who will be taking over Ms Adillah, till next year or by end of this year cause my MT teacher will be leaving soon. What else? Okay, this term I will be taking DnT. Fuck it. I already gave up on the second lesson of DnT. Hm, bla bla bla, others still the same. I just don't see myself slacking that much ever since the starting of the semester. I did my homeworks, I did my schoolworks, I brought all my books, I've been attending CCA, and I hope this attitude of mine shall never stop. Streaming year this year, I just expect the best results on my report slip by end of this year ;D
And oh, not to forget. For this semester too, I'll be taking Geography. Sigh, cannot make it. I've been sleeping in class. Whether am I in the class or not, the teacher will not even notice it. I'm sitting right in front of where the teacher is teaching, yet I could still sleep for the whole 1  hour period. SIGH!

For my own life, outside school life. Hm. I do have problems with it. But yeah, I can't do anything about it, just to do well for my studies. Only he knows what I'm going through right now. I thank him for being there for me whenever I need him. I thank him, for all the advices he gave. I thank him, for all the every 5 minutes calls he gave, just to make sure that I'm alright. I thank him for all his concerns and everything. Terima kasih cinta.

For me and my other part of life, well, been doing great :D
We don't really fight, except for one of those childish fights :P
I'm just grateful, that I still have him by my side though I'm not yet officially his lil girlfriend, yet. I'm just grateful, to have a guy, that takes care of me when I'm sick. The only guy that will know whether am I alright or not by just hearing my voice, not the way I talk. The only guy that will keep asking me why am I behaving weirdly. The only guy that will call me every 5 minutes, just to ensure me that I'm not feeling down. The guy that will call me just to hear me laugh. And the only guy, that will do anything, just to make me smile. I love that guy. That guy who taught me what love is. Insya'Allah, if God willings, if nothing happens, we will be a pair, once again, amin.

And this song. I still remembered this. This song, is the song when we were in a relationship. This song is the song that he sent through Facebook with LONGLONGLONG message. We fought till the extend that I told him, I hate love, I hate him. Nobody can handle his ego. But just for the sake of me, he pushed away his ego, and decided to give me this song along with along message to tell me how much the relationship meant to him. I just hope things will go smoothly between me and him. Hopefully I shall stay strong and overcome all the obstacles. I also hope, he shall stay with me though there will be fights or misunderstandings between us. And I just hope, he knows, how much I love him. :)
And I do hope, that we could be together, like how we were last year.

Assalamualaikum.

Sunday, 26 June 2011
Last blogged @ 12:33

Assalamualaikum.
Sorry for not posting lately. Life's been hard somehow. How should I start?

Okay firstly, I had a wonderful Saturday with my dearest Ilyqa and Wanie. We talked, we didn't gossip. But we bitch. We understand each other's life. My life's getting better, with them around me. We've been hanging out together lately, and yeah, I feel really closed to them. God has open my eyes widely, and see my surroundings. He gave me, the most understanding bestfriends, whom I know will never leave me, when I need them the most. Words can't describe anything. I just love my gunduheads<3

Okay. Talking about open my eyes widely. Since 22nd June, I started to see, the guy that is meant for me. This is how it goes; On the 16th, I met this guy, Eddie. Actually, he's been on my Facebook friendlist for quite sometime. Everytime I walk to Lakeside bus stop each morning to go to school, I'll eventually bump into him. And yeah, we chat for quite sometime, and he asked me to be his girlfriend. And yes, onbivously, I rejected. Not really rejected, I just kept quiet. Whenever he brought up that topic, I'll just change the topic. I kept quiet, and ignored him for quite sometime. Ignored as in, his calls and texts, I didn't bother to either answer or reply. We only did wall to wall posting on cyber. Then on the 22nd June, I suddenly received a text at night. Thinking it was Eddie, I didn't open that text, and just ignored it for more than half an hour. Then I opened that text after that. And nope. It wasn't Eddie. It was my used-to-be-other-half, and currently, still my other half.

Before I knew Eddie, we (me and my other half) had a big fight. Major big fight. Till he was pissed, he sent me this text on the 19th June: "Sorry. Have a gd lyfe aite?(: i won't disturb yr lyfe anymore." That's when we started to just stop contacting, he deleted me from Facebook too, yeah. And yeah, my heart beats fast, when I saw that unread message. I took me a few seconds, before I opened that text. It says: "Hmm, i really dun hav a chance to hav you again alrdy? :/"
And yeah, that text made me, smile widely. WIDELY. The first person to know about that message is my cutest girl, Ilyqa :D Only she knew, how happy I was. :P

And the next day, Eddie called me. I answered. He brought up the topic of being his girlfriend. And yeah, I may sound like a bitch here. I rejected him. But girls, before calling me a bitch, answer me. Would you want to lose your virgin to a guy who you don't love? Would you lie to your feelings, and be with a guy, that you don't love sincerely? You should know what I mean. :)

Let's just end it here. I don't wish to expose more about my life. My life, my matters. I don't wish to be an attention seeker, and post everything right here. All I can say is that, I love my life. Despite having a personal problems, which only my other half knows about it, I still love my life. Allah showed me to, real true friends. Allah showed me, to a guy, who really loves me. Alhamdullillah, amin.

I just hope my personal problems would end soon. I know, with the help of my other half, I know I'm going to be strong.

Assalamualaikum :)